I've not felt like blogging for the past few days, mainly because I've been feeling a little irritated. Not by blogging or other bloggers, might I add, just other things going on in my life at the moment. I have to keep reminding myself not to dwell on the small petty things that other people say or do, that make you feel like you are somehow a failure or some sort of loser. Most of the time, I manage to navigate life not worrying about other peoples negativity, but occasionally I find myself dwelling on it and I can't quite get past it.
My current preoccupation seems to be a bit of an obsession with decluttering. Partly, the reason for this, was a recent comment made about my house. I don't know about anyone else, but I am a touch sensitive with regard to my hearth and home. I'm not ridiculously houseproud, miminalist (I wish), or even particularly precious about my home, as you probably know from reading some of my posts, but I do take umbrage when another person passes comment, in a not wholly positive way. Anyway, on the positive side, it's made me take a good long look and yes, there is quite a bit of clutter, and yes some of it can go, which has been my main focus in the last week or two. Another 4 boxes and bags were taken to the charity shop today and I've already started thinking about what can go in the next lot.
It doesn't help that I'm feeling a little stuck in a rut at the moment and don't quite feel like I'm making much progress in certain areas of my life, so I'm trying to consider where I need to make changes to improve things and bolster my sense of myself. I'm not actually getting too far in this regard, but one good thing is the extra pounds I put on whilst on holiday have finally shifted, so I'm happy about that, just a few more stone to go. Only joking. One would be good.
I read an interesting post on Frugal Queen's blog today which inspired me, about looking after oneself and putting yourself first, and I think that perhaps I'm not doing a good enough job of this lately and am too worried about pleasing others, who probably couldn't care less anyway. So, I think from now on, I'm going to do a bit more of the former and be a bit more discerning about the latter and see what happens.
Sorry to harp on to you guys about it, I guess we all have bad days, and that's what makes us human.